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2005.07.27

Jadi Gilak a.k.a rambling to myself, tak perlu dibaca.

He called me. Accused me of ignoring him. I wasnt really, but I do not see the point of actively seeking him out. But when he told me about the Ah Lian he is currently dating, I felt a pang. Was I actually jealous that he was paying attention to another woman? Amende ni? What about Shirts? What about my plans? How did this other fellow dengan jayanya with just a simple phone call made me momentarily forget about Shirts? Di manakah silapnya? Di mana? Tidak!!!!

Kadang kadang rasa nak terjun lombong pun ada. Aku tak tau apsal dua tiga menjak ni, otak aku macam berserabut je, lepas tu aku nak emo tak tentu pasal. I mean what the bloody right do I have to be jealous that he's dating someone else? And most importantly, why the FUCK should I be jealous if I was so gugu gaga over Shirts?

Sudah!

Am I so easily influenced by his words, by the logic of if I was really into Shirts, I wont be "shopping around" for another relationship, would I? I wont be that friendly to him, would I? Tapi mana ada I was "shopping around" pun, I was just being friendly. So macam mana boleh jadi begini? Atau adakah I was just being typical self absorbed, selfish, blardee perasan Aida who wants to be the center of every man's attention?

I also blame Shirts for not being so very assuring (mengada-ngada orang dah nak beli teket belon, lagi cakap tak reassuring. Yes, Aida memang mintak penyepak).

I guess memang betul bila kawan2 cakap stay away from him. Dont let him fuck with your mind.

Too late, my mind is already fucked.

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